I have obviously neglected this, but prepping my husband for his year long deployment to Afghanistan, spending the last few weeks with him were worth every bit.
I have to say, I think a lot of people exaggerate deployments, I cried when we said bye... Only because we had about 10 seconds to say bye, & it was all very quick, but he stopped about 5 feet away, turned & looked at me & had tears welled up in his eyes... He walked back to me, kissed Us & hugged us both again & told me to go home & he loves me. I watched him march away with his Platoon, so sad. I cried. Of course I cried. Who wouldn't. It sucks, having him completely all mine, in my arms reach & seconds later he is on a bus to the airfield to go 7,000 miles away. It's almost not fair.
Anyways, I have seen & heard of so many women who can't lift their heads off the pillow the next day, can't get out of bed for a week, binge eat & cry everyday for the first month. NOT ME. Maybe it was because I grew up watching my Dad deploy so much, I saw my mom carry on with her life, take care of my little sisters & I, & at the end it was all okay. I know it will all be okay. I am strong. So I have teared up when our song comes on the radio in the whole 9 days he has been gone, but no crazy mental breakdowns or anything (Though if you do have a crazy mental breakdown, it is understandable.)
I have been taking our son on walks, taking him to the park, going out with friends & putting together his First care packs (Ugh I am SO not looking forward to seeing how much postage will be, flat rate boxes won't hold all of this!) Our 2nd Wedding Anniversary is the same day as Easter, I think it's neat. Too bad it will be a loooong time that ever happens again.
Sooooo....
Today, April 5th 2011 I started my dieting again, my Insanity Fitness Program ALL over again & I also started taking OxyElite Pro. I have 50 pounds to lose before R&R his December!! & Tone up as well, I want to get my bellybutton re-pierced. I weighed in at 225. I wear a size 16 with a belly band from my pregnancy, because I can't button the buttons, but the 18's are too big on me (One sigh of relief I can breath), my legs used to be so toned from soccer & running, not anymore. Needless to say I am beyond disgusted I have let myself get to this. Luckily I am 5'9'' & carry my weight well, but goodness, this has GOT to go. I cannot wait to WOW my husband when he steps off that plane for R&R. He thinks I am beautiful either way, & love to look at old pictures of myself, & he'll joke with me & tell me he misses me... I love that man & he deserves me at my best, but I am so blessed to have a man that loves me & thinks I am beautiful at my worst.
I did really good on my first day, did my Insanity fit test, at only fruits & Veggies all day minus a lean pocket for lunch, 2 baked chicken tenders for dinner, with half a cup of pasta. Although I am getting hungry again, so I hope some strawberries will satisfy me for the night. I also started a facebook site in light on my transformation called "The Military Wife Slim Down" I feel like having more people hold me accountable, so I will do better for them & show them that it IS possible! I sure hope I can fit back into my size 11's again, I looked so damn good. (I know, conceited) & my goal is 175, that is what I was when we got married, but I can settle with 180, I don't really know how pregnancy did my body, because I never lost any of the weight! I will post pictures in 30 days, to show you & see my own progress! Maybe... :D
-Mrs. Brooks
