Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Well, Hi!

I have obviously neglected this, but prepping my husband for his year long deployment to Afghanistan, spending the last few weeks with him were worth every bit.

I have to say, I think a lot of people exaggerate deployments, I cried when we said bye... Only because we had about 10 seconds to say bye, & it was all very quick, but he stopped about 5 feet away, turned & looked at me & had tears welled up in his eyes... He walked back to me, kissed Us & hugged us both again & told me to go home & he loves me. I watched him march away with his Platoon, so sad. I cried. Of course I cried. Who wouldn't. It sucks, having him completely all mine, in my arms reach & seconds later he is on a bus to the airfield to go 7,000 miles away. It's almost not fair.

Anyways, I have seen & heard of so many women who can't lift their heads off the pillow the next day, can't get out of bed for a week, binge eat & cry everyday for the first month. NOT ME. Maybe it was because I grew up watching my Dad deploy so much, I saw my mom carry on with her life, take care of my little sisters & I, & at the end it was all okay. I know it will all be okay. I am strong. So I have teared up when our song comes on the radio in the whole 9 days he has been gone, but no crazy mental breakdowns or anything (Though if you do have a crazy mental breakdown, it is understandable.)

I have been taking our son on walks, taking him to the park, going out with friends & putting together his First care packs (Ugh I am SO not looking forward to seeing how much postage will be, flat rate boxes won't hold all of this!) Our 2nd Wedding Anniversary is the same day as Easter, I think it's neat. Too bad it will be a loooong time that ever happens again.

Sooooo....
Today, April 5th 2011 I started my dieting again, my Insanity Fitness Program ALL over again & I also started taking OxyElite Pro. I have 50 pounds to lose before R&R his December!! & Tone up as well, I want to get my bellybutton re-pierced. I weighed in at 225. I wear a size 16 with a belly band from my pregnancy, because I can't button the buttons, but the 18's are too big on me (One sigh of relief I can breath), my legs used to be so toned from soccer & running, not anymore. Needless to say I am beyond disgusted I have let myself get to this. Luckily I am 5'9'' & carry my weight well, but goodness, this has GOT to go. I cannot wait to WOW my husband when he steps off that plane for R&R. He thinks I am beautiful either way,  & love to look at old pictures of myself, & he'll joke with me & tell me he misses me... I love that man & he deserves me at my best, but I am so blessed to have a man that loves me & thinks I am beautiful at my worst.

I did really good on my first day, did my Insanity fit test, at only fruits & Veggies all day minus a lean pocket for lunch, 2 baked chicken tenders for dinner, with half a cup of pasta. Although I am getting hungry again, so I hope some strawberries will satisfy me for the night. I also started a facebook site in light on my transformation called "The Military Wife Slim Down" I feel like having more people hold me accountable, so I will do better for them & show them that it IS possible! I sure hope I can fit back into my size 11's again, I looked so damn good. (I know, conceited) & my goal is 175, that is what I was when we got married, but I can settle with 180, I don't really know how pregnancy did my body, because I never lost any of the weight! I will post pictures in 30 days, to show you & see my own progress! Maybe... :D

                                                                           -Mrs. Brooks

Monday, February 14, 2011

Valentines Day!

This was a special one for me, as this time next year, my other half will be in Afghanistan...It was great, he got me a cute card & new boots, we got our son a drum filled with musical instruments & I got him his favorite chocolates & 3D Boxers (That really work!) & a new sweater. I cooked dinner, we ate as a family on watched Carebears with our son (first time & surprisingly Andrew loved it!?) Watched a romantic movie & I got to put the new pink ruffle butts to use ;)

Anyways...

My facebook is filled with pictures of Cards, candy, flowers, lovey status updates, ya know... But then there where women complaining about how much they HATE Valentines Day because their husband couldn't surprise them. They got no sweet gestures. No flowers. No candy. No card. But I just want so badly to write, "& what did you do to WOW him!?"

Why do women always leave everything on the men?? Don't you have to give to receive? I believe in that. & not just for Valentines Day.
The other day, I went out shopping, I drove my husbands truck, because of the weather here, he always likes to have a half a tank of gas. Well as I was at my last stop, I saw I was sitting just at the half way mark of how much gas is in the tank. Sure, I could have left it, it wouldn't have been a big deal... But instead, I filled it up for him & picked him up something to eat. Without him asking. I know soon, if I need a favor, I won't have to ask, he'll just do it on his own will.

People are so take, take, take. It's irritating. & there is no in between on the Hallmark holiday. You either love it or you don't.
A friends status at 5 a.m. this morning "I'm going to stay off here all day, I don't want to piss anyone off because I won't be receiving gifts from my husband & I don't want to see anyone elses stuff."
*Insert tire screeching noise here*

First off, it is 5 in the dang morning! If my husband even thought of bringing me flowers I would probably not be as appreciative as I should. Second, this didnt even surprise me... This particular woman associates her husbands love with material things.

(After a week of continuously complaining about pizza on her Facebook status) "Oh my husband finally bought me pizza, he must actually love me"
"My husband bought me the DVD set of 'Sons of Anarchy' he really does love me"

UGH!
She ended up getting flowers delivered to her, two hours later at the bus stop as she was sending her children off to school, but it got me wondering "Did her husband get her those because she was already bitching? Had he already planned on buying them for her?"

I just wish more people would realize, relationships are a 2-way street. Yes, we all know the woman wants to be romanced & the movies are always depicting men to be a plethora of Romantic ideas... But our lives are not like fairytales, or movies. Romance your husband, surprise him, next time you are at the grocery store, buy him his favorite drink, or his favorite magazine or candy bar... If you share a car, maure sure the gas tank is full when it is up for his use, if you have separate, take his & fill it up. Bake his favorite cookies, or cake, or pie for no reason. If he dips or smokes, have a fresh can/fresh pack waiting for him somewhere that he will see it. Make the bed, light a candle at night before sex, I know a lot of men go to work super early, but get up once in awhile to make him a hot breakfast. Men can always eat. My husband is up & at 'em at 530, but I try to once a week get up & make him muffins or even heat him a breakfast sandwich.

The little things go a long way.
                                                    Goodnight & Happy Valentines Day -Mrs. Brooks

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Hello there!

So....
I started this because I think writing keeps me from losing my mind, & yet I haven't done any of it in the last 2.5 years & really, writing helps me figure out a lot more about myself.
Guess I should start off with a bit about myself...

I'm Mrs. Brooks. I'm 20. My husband is 23. Mr. Brooks is in the U.S. Army & is deploying inccredibly too soon for the very first time! He has been in for 3 years. We've been together for 2. Married for almost 2. & We have a 1 year old son, Andrew. Andrew is a New Years baby & one of the happiest little boys you could ever come across (& I'm not saying that because he is mine!) I truly believe he will do something great in this world.
I'm a Navy Brat, a soccer player, a swimmer, a runner, a lover, sometimes a fighter. I was born in Dallas Texas & raised..Everywhere! I have a best friend that has been by my side since the 5th grade, & I believe that is a rarity, especially these days. You never know who you can trust anymore!

I always see the glass half full (Except that time when the Army lost all of our Household goods for a week)... & I think it bothers people how happy I am. I mean of course, I have my bad days, my husband & I are by no means perfect, we have our arguments, but we are perfect for each other &  I see my life in a beautiful way. Why do people get bothered by others happiness? Are they upset that it was not them who had that first grasp at that feeling? I wonder about this a lot. I see peoples Facebooks & more people can be happy for someone if they are single than in a relationship... More people can be happy that someone went out, got drunk & got into trouble than someone who got up, went for some excercise, & did meaningful & productive things with their lives.

Anyways... That's a whole other blog!

I live in New York currently. My dream & mission in life is to become a Registered Nurse, & I have a passion for this. I am so ecstatic that I can finally settle in somewhere & start towards achieving my dream. (& on another note I cannot stand people that are in the medical field "For the Money", personally, I don't want my life in the hands of someone who is just doing this job for the paycheck, I'd rather it be in the hands of someone who wants to help people out)

Currently, I am a stay at home Mom. But don't let that fool you. I get on the internet at nap time  & after bedtime. My son has always got me on the go, my house is ALWAYS clean, & I am either teaching my son, playing with my son, feeding my son, feeding my husband, feeding them both, picking up after the two of them, working out, doing laundry, or shoveling snow. & I would not have it any other way. Okay... Well now that our boy is over a year old, I think a job sounds nice... But I think I will focus on school for now.

I'm struggling to get back to my pre-baby weight. So that will be an adventure to keep up with on here. I think I might get brave & even post before & after pictures & pictures to track my progress as well! I was rather large my freshman & sophomore year of High school, began losing it my junior & my senior I was eating constantly & running 3 miles 6 days out of the week... Ahh, the care free days. Now my excercise consists of chasing my Toddler & the occasional Zumba session on my Kinect. It's a little sad. But I have made myself & my husband a promise I will lose this weight (40 pounds) while he is gone on deployment. Not  that he says anything, because I know he loves me no matter what, but I also know he misses me that way. & I miss myself that way as well! I'm 5'9 & even with a bit of a gut & some love handles these days I still have an athletic build, with toned shoulders from Swimming & powerhouse thighs  from years of soccer, my lowest weight ever was 165 & my smallest pants size was an 11 (9 on the really, really good days!) So, obviously I am a larger build anyways. I see girls eyes pop when I say "Oh to be an 11 again"... But at a 9, I was not eating & taking adderall to help myself lose weight & I began to look sickly, at a SIZE NINE. So forgive me for loving my double digit pant size!

I'm excited for this blog, it will be a nice place to record my thoughts on this weight-loss journey, a nice place to vent & share while my husband & I go through our first  deployment (Well, while he goes through his first deployment & while I support him through & through) & just to let it all out to people that may understand better than the closest of my friends!

Goodnight!

                                                                    -Mrs. Brooks